Tuesday, 11 April 2017

Life as it is, Precious.

My little honey bunny has been hospitalised. Again, in her young life, and she's not even 2. Fighting high fever, her little episodes of muscle spasms got me a little too worried that we decided to bring her to A&E. Thankfully it is not seizures. Doctor says there are too many white blood cells in her blood. She has viral infection. Little cherub hasn't had any milk the past 2 days and very little food. Drip was the way to prevent dehydration, but medication was a nightmare. Everytime nurses or doctors came in she would cry like someone was going to beat her up.

4th night here, and I am thankful for all the nurses and all our friends who prayed for Phoebe and our little family. A little together, makes a lot. And the support gives us strength. Thankful that her fever has subsided, just a little more.. Have more food and then you will be good to go home babydoll.

Few nights here got me thinking. As parents we are readily available to catch a grenade for our children. We love them unconditionally. We can sacrifice many things for them, and we'll always gladly do so. One day, I was watching TV, a channel 8 show and an actress in the show said something like ' why are we always so ready to give all our time and sacrifices for our descendants but we are not willing to give as much to our parents? ' This got me thinking. As a mom, I know that my mother would do the same for me, as what I did for my princess, but how come love is different for our own parents? I do love my mom, needless to say, but I've seen much in life, my mom always says that a mother can raise 10 children, but when she is old, 10 children cannot take care of 1 mother. I thought about my grandmother. She raised 10.. But among the 10.. Not everyone is willing to care for the old, frail woman who has dementia.. Have they all forgotten the tough times she went through, working long hours everyday, to bring food home and to send them to school? My grandmother was a tough woman, she raised all 10, all by herself. Yet not all children are willing to take care of her now..

Whatever happened to ''mama I will always love you?" It is heartbreaking to see how children can forget a mom's love for them and not feel any guilt or responsibility over their own mother. Sometimes we think.. How can people be so heartless? Regardless, I am thankful. My mom is thankful, (my grandmother highly prefers to stay with her son), that I have a filial Uncle and aunt who are willing to take care of my grandmother. I salute my cousins who tirelessly change my grandmother's pampers everyday, bathe her, feed her and to simply be there for her. To the unsung heroes of the family, I thank you all for giving your unconditional love to granny, even though she is like a child now, throwing tantrums and being difficult sometimes.. You guys are truly amazing. In the midst of doubting humanity, there is heart. There is still unconditional love for parents, as much as there is for our children and descendants.

Let's all be human.

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always, 
As long as I'm living, 
My baby you'll be... 

I'll love you forever, 
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living, 
My Mommy you'll be... 

(Song taken from book- Love you forever)

Faithfully penned by 
Connie Soh-Sie

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